I've recently graduated college. This is strange not only because I have no idea how I became an adult, and because I'm still not finished with school.
I will be beginning a Master's program at my Alma Mater in the Fall, and I am thrilled! So excited about the classes I'm going to take, and the things I will learn.
Meanwhile, I feel a little left behind. I'm not in the same stage of life as most of my friends. Many of whom are getting married and starting careers. I know, however, thatI am exactly where God wants me.
A few reasons I know this:
I cannot do anything with my Bachelor's degree. (I've known this since the beginning).
I don't want to be a full-time employee just yet.
My boyfriend is still in undergrad.
I have seen God's hand through every step of the process.
So, obviously I'm in a good place! I just find myself longing for a little more independence. I want to be a little more free. My parents have generously agreed to support me through graduate school, but I am a little bit over not being able to support myself yet. My tuition is paid for. So that is amazing. It's just these little things like "rent" and "utilities" or, you know "insurance". I'm so blessed that they are willing to do this for me, but at almost-23, I want to be independent.
Unfortunately, Barista does not an independent woman make*.
In addition, I'm looking at 4 wedding this summer and wondering: "When will that be me". If everything goes according to Mr. Right's and my plan, then it will be in 2 years or so. Not a horribly long time to wait, but not short either. I look at these wedding and I get jealous. I know I shouldn't. But I'm a 23 year old woman in the age of Facebook and Pinterest. So here we are. All of my exes are either engaged or married. And I know I never would have wanted to marry them. I want to marry Mr. Right. I have a suspicion that this is God's way of getting me to finish Grad School. My boyfriend won't be finished with undergrad for another year, so I have plenty of time. It'll all be okay. And I'll be so degreed by the end of this it won't even be funny. Thank God for education. I'm probably always going to be a student somehow.
Anyway, things are good. Better than good. I seem to be in a perpetual time of patience. I'm not a good wait-er. But here we are. Okay, Lord, I get it. I'm trying.
